sick world~~

long time neva blog due to obvious reasons... once i get back to blogging.. juz to rant some sick shit...

i'm in the midst of the preparation of my exams... i'm alreadi stressed enough.. and yet u are still giving mi shit... wat kind of a sick world is this? we live to be dead... wat's the point of living... damn it... i've seen alot of ppl come and ppl go... but now... it's my turn... i can't even go and see her for the last time.. if something realli happens... but i realli dun wan tat to happen.. i have not seen her for the past few yrs... i miss her... but now.. i realli wish to go see her for the last time.. but i can't... whether is she in a miserable state or not.. i wish to see her.. juz tat the smile is alreadi off her face...

i realli hope she makes it.. i love her... and i dun wan to lose her... but sometimes i realli wonder.. is she happy living in this miserable state... unable to walk and all.. i realli hope she stays.. but is it realli a veri good choice for her? onli she knows.. if she's really suffering and she wishes to leave.. i realli would miss her alot..i may look as if nth has happen.. but alot of things is going through my brain...

i pray hard.. that she will make it.. but if she's realli suffering and she wishes to go.. hope she can see this... 'wai po, wo ai ni..' my grandma is a devoted buddhist and i believe she will make it to heaven if anithing happens to her... i will pray to wateva god is up there... tat... my grandma will be well taken care of.. where ever she is.. and since she's a buddhist... Amitabha... I love u grandma.. where ever u are..

one last note... pls.. cherish the ones u love.. dun b like mi... end up being an unfilial grandson who can't even see his grandmother..