ADSFG

Tuning to: COF - Nymphetamine (overdose)


life's starting to be more and more meaningless to me.. same old routines.. same old ppl u meet.. the same shit and same subject that keeps on revolving around us.. the things u wan neva gets to u.. the things u dun wan always crops up.. who arranged all these? i'm very ridiculed by it.. everyday u wake up.. u will have to think how to lead the day.. but it's juz the same old routine juz like the previous week u have juz led through.. it's juz a cycle.. keeps on revolving.. dun u ppl get sick of it.. i m very sick of it.. it have only been 18 yrs of my life.. and i'm sick.. i definitely dun wan to live up to a ripe old age.. imagine.. if u live up to 80 years old.. all u ever do is work to feed.. i seriously dun wan this kinda life.. they always say.. live life to the fullest.. how full can u live it up when this world is so fucking materialistic.. all they ever talk about is money.. how to earn quick bucks and such.. making unrealistic statement knowing that it will never come true..


relationship.. it's juz another thing i hope i can get rid of in my life.. I HOPE AND I WISHED.. what's waiting for me at the end of the path? a FUCKED UP situation that is left for me to clean up.. someone have told me.. being in a relationship is juz being more intimate in ur actions.. spending countless efforts to make the other person happy.. nothing more.. if u would say that there would be someone to listen to ur woes.. lend u a crying shoulder.. dun u have friends.. normal friends to do that? if u realli dun have any.. u are probably isolating urself away from them or u juz wan to keep them to u all by urself.. i'm such an example.. yes.. i admit.. i do share my woes with friends.. but not to the core of the situation.. i would juz grumble and grumble and that's it.. the situation that i m going through would always be a mist to them.. i have a very close female friend.. i share everything with her.. and i do mean everything.. but after O's.. things began to change.. not for better, but for the worse.. no one knows wad i'm going through.. no one will ever know.. i starting to doubt everyone's sincerity.. EVERYONE......