Life

Listening : Limp Bizkit - The Truth

i was in the bus just now when a sudden strange feeling got into me. This phrase somehow or rather got to me when i was in the bus. Why are we here? We are all yearning to be living when we are living to be dead. it just struck me just like that *a snap of the fingers*

suddenly i felt that i'm no one. i felt that my presence is not felt to anyone. AT ALL.. suddenly i felt that i'm feeling helpless towards everything. EVERYTHING.

let's think about it, when we die, where are we going. what will we feel after we are dead. do we still can feel like now? or does everything just blackout and never come back again? it's a thought then have been haunting me since i was like 5. i've been thinking about this question. i believe no one can answer this question. i can still vividly rememeber this incident, where i was like in primary 3, i weeped silently because of this fear in me. till now, i still can feel this fear in me. whenever i'm alone, i will think of everything and anything. but this is a question i do not wish to explore into. every time i think about this question, the sudden strange feeling will always, ALWAYS come back to.

i don't know what to say for now. i'm speechless for a moment.