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a note to all you guys although you guys may not be reading because there aren't alot of people reading my blog. you think i don't know? i ain't stupid. i'll not be updating very often due to hectic schedule, heavy school work and for O levels.

yesterday was a fantabulous day, but my gastric kind of spoiled everything. the food in malaysia was good. the peeps there ain't that great but it sure is fun. bought lots of stuff. this is the first time i bought so much stuff without my parents with me. i was like this is nice. buy. this is cheap, must buy that kind of stuff. came back with quite a little trouble cause my bag was full, my hands are taking 3 big bags. alright, yesterday was just great.

alright, self reflection time.

everyday, without fail, whenever i go to school. i will see this physically handicapped

gentleman

, making his way with much difficulties to the stairs at the void deck to wait for a van to go to work.. i suppose. you see, he had one leg much more shorter than the other and his hands and face have that kind of typical handicapped person's feature. *i'm sorry if this sound quite mean. i tried thinking about better choice of words but i just don't know how to para-phrase it. i sincerely apologise.*

i'm not trying to discriminate him or something but when i saw him the first time which was like months ago.i was like giving him those wierd stares? but after much thinking on the bus while travelling. i was impressed. i have to admit. if i'm in his situation, i would just give up and stay at home do nothing. but he, he stayed strong and lead a normal life. i was impressed, very impressed. then i started to think.

if he, can stay strong not giving up and not being lazy to go out and work with all the wierd stares. why am i being such a lazy bump dreading to study. i must admit, i'm physically healthy, but i'm not mentally healthy. studying is much more easier than being out in the society to work. i just have to read books books and more books. while he have to go through those tedious stages of life and still come out strong. i'm seriously doubting myself, my capability and my abilty in all aspects.

now you know why i call this gentleman, a gentleman. i seriously respect him