Lucien Lau
heretic
Watching : Slipknot - Before i Forget (live at tmf award)
just before i go mugging, which i should supposedly start at 2pm. slacked till now then i start having the urge to study. shall blog about this few days.
31/10/2005
it's halloweens. didn't do much. went out to orchard. the mood's so depressing. had nothing to do. went to kelly's place for dinner and caught the movie 'the exorcism of emily rose'. although missed out the first half an hours of the show. nonetheless, the show's great. great storyline. i shall watch it again to catch the first 30mins and recap the storyline again. i'm just so hyped up about this kind of shows. went to have a short chit chat session and went home around 3.30am in the morning. reached home at 4.45am.
01/11/2005
woke up, dl-ing stuff and went to parkway to meet daphne and shu ting. studied math. she taught me graphs. should be able to cope later? *shrugs. studied till 6pm when 3 of us got hungry. KFC (OMG, again. been eating lots of junk food since class chalet) for dinner. shopped around when i got the urge to pool. taught them and played a few rounds. left at 9.50pm. went to bedok to top up EZ-link card and went back home.
how the night ended, wasn't in my expectations. i wish those things i have said doesn't hurt her a bit but i know it's bull. i really feel like clearing out the mist but i wasn't given the consent. i'm at a loss of what to do. totally. i wish i could help. things will never be the way we wanted it to be.
it just shows how fragile human beings can be and how we react frantically to situations of the unexpected. we get agitated over stuff that occurs to us when that thing doesn't look well to us. i was overwhelmed by emotions that i started to get agitated. i let my emotions got the better of me. i'm totally useless.
a loss of what to do. emotions got hold of me. blaming everyone and not myself is all i do. i never give in although i know it's my fault in the first place. i stood by and stared blankly when my friends needed help. i look for help when i needed but vice versa? i ran away.
so much for cultivating a person over a period of 18 years. how nice to see that i'm actually going down.
just before i go mugging, which i should supposedly start at 2pm. slacked till now then i start having the urge to study. shall blog about this few days.
31/10/2005
it's halloweens. didn't do much. went out to orchard. the mood's so depressing. had nothing to do. went to kelly's place for dinner and caught the movie 'the exorcism of emily rose'. although missed out the first half an hours of the show. nonetheless, the show's great. great storyline. i shall watch it again to catch the first 30mins and recap the storyline again. i'm just so hyped up about this kind of shows. went to have a short chit chat session and went home around 3.30am in the morning. reached home at 4.45am.
01/11/2005
Happy Birthday, Evonne Mei
woke up, dl-ing stuff and went to parkway to meet daphne and shu ting. studied math. she taught me graphs. should be able to cope later? *shrugs. studied till 6pm when 3 of us got hungry. KFC (OMG, again. been eating lots of junk food since class chalet) for dinner. shopped around when i got the urge to pool. taught them and played a few rounds. left at 9.50pm. went to bedok to top up EZ-link card and went back home.
SURPRISE, SURPRISE!
how the night ended, wasn't in my expectations. i wish those things i have said doesn't hurt her a bit but i know it's bull. i really feel like clearing out the mist but i wasn't given the consent. i'm at a loss of what to do. totally. i wish i could help. things will never be the way we wanted it to be.
it just shows how fragile human beings can be and how we react frantically to situations of the unexpected. we get agitated over stuff that occurs to us when that thing doesn't look well to us. i was overwhelmed by emotions that i started to get agitated. i let my emotions got the better of me. i'm totally useless.
a loss of what to do. emotions got hold of me. blaming everyone and not myself is all i do. i never give in although i know it's my fault in the first place. i stood by and stared blankly when my friends needed help. i look for help when i needed but vice versa? i ran away.
so much for cultivating a person over a period of 18 years. how nice to see that i'm actually going down.
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