tarnished

Watching : Mudvayne - Forget to Remember

well, how many times have you in your entire life saw police tending to a corpse who have leaped to his/her death? i had 2.

it's terrifying, seeing people leap to their death just like that. their life ended at an instant, the moment they are in mid-air or the moment they hit the ground. some might ask, 'where got people die in mid-air?' i'll explain why that later on in my entry.

the first time i witness such stuff was when i was like primary 4 or primary 5. can't remember what took place. all that's left in my memory was seeing a lifeless body lying on the ground. the second time, moments ago. i was as usual on my way back home from school. i saw this crowd gathered at the block that's opposite mine. curiousity got the better of me. i went to take a glance. well, the police was covering the corpse with a blue tent. i left the scene immediately. i was in the lift with a few of my neighbours of the same block, they are talking about that incident too.

'what if someone accidently stepped on the eyeball that popped out?'

i was disgusted by the question and the ignorance of that kid. as i said, he's just a kid. i forgave his naiveness. what a question to ask when somebody have just leapt to his/her death. what have the world come to? seriously, we ought to take kids nowadays more seriously.

now, answer to that question. if my memories served me correctly, i remembered some science teacher told me that when one commit suicide by jumping off buildings, it's either that they are scared to death in the mid air, or they really hit the ground and die. true or false? i don't know. and i'm so glad that i will not be answering this question myself.

just in case some people don't know. it's a crime to take your own life. when you leap to death, lying in your coffin, i'm not sure if this is true or not but heard someone said that you will be handcuffed, even though you are dead and lying in your coffin. think thrice before you do anything.

alright! enough of all those leaping to death talks.

school's really boring me out. something to rejoice is that next week it will be a week holiday for us. i guess i will spend more time with my guitar.

mr noel sort of gave me a lecture about my grooming and my language. well, what's wrong with profanity. everybody in any point of time have used them. just that i'm using it more often in my conversations. it's me. don't try to change me. same goes to my hair. no matter what you say, i won't do anything to it. period.

it's going to be saturday. i will be dead busy on that day. basically is to go for band practice, go back home and change, then go out with claris and jasmine for a while before i set off to kemangan then to serangoon then to clementi. all in the time of four hours. wish me luck i will be spending enough time with them.

i'm spending far too much money for now. damn it. will have to change this bad habit of mine.