*truly* unsatisfied shit

Listening - Mushroomhead : Kill tomorrow

i'm kind of disappointed by recent incidents that made me feel that we are always intruded by the things that other people do. i was demoralised and i don't feel like doing anything yesterday. it's like so much of helping yet, the other party gave up or back out last minute. making all efforts that i made futile. i was disappointed. in fact very disappointed. i can't describe how i felt yesterday. i'm feeling a wee bit better but it's still demoralising once i recall the incidents.

today will be the day the band meet up without the bassist. i hope we would sort things out. the things that jerry spoke about. just hope everything goes well.

my dad allowed me to get a laptop already. i'm absolutely scared that the promotion ended as today is the 1st day of the month. i'm afraid that the promotion ended yesterday and i totally missed it. i would regret.

i'm thinking through what actually took place throughout the duration of this month. what the hell have i done and what have i done to deserve these kind of treatments. it's a total mental torture. nonetheless, life goes on..

*edit*: truly, as what i expected, the promotion ended yesterday. feeling more fucked up right now. thanks for this shit motherfucking world..