vicious cycle

Watching : Slipknot - Everything ends

a year is gone. out with the old and in with the new. i hope this applies to all my friends.

it's a vicious cycle again, starting. well, just hope that the year 2006 will not be as sucky as the year 2005. well, the year 2005 have it's fair share of us and downs for me. let's get started shall we?

Jan
I've lost someone i truly miss and love the most. it's my grand-mother. i'm still full of regrets now. it's very unfilial of me not to visit her whenever i can. well, it made me realise a lot about life through this stage. cherish whoever that are close to you. but no matter who much effort you put in, once the person departs, the sense of guilt will always be there. we will always think that what we have done is never enough. NEVER enough. i truly am guilty and sad that with myself that what an ingrate i can be. i will never want to experience this ever again in my life, but it's not a choice. i will have to go through it again. i just sincerely hope that it will not take place in the near future.

March
it's the time when i got my O level results and move on with life to another stage. i failed my math so practically, i have no where to go. it's the time when i can say i'm sort of regret. but now, it's no more of the regrets.

April
it's my kimberly's birth month. *cheers*

May
i won't let this build up inside of me.

June
While people are having their holidays, i'm BUSY! back to school. well, i got enrolled into ITE (simei). it's the time where i got to know a bunch of great friends. PM0504K was the class i got into and it's the best class so far. we are a bunch of future wireless technicians! we're rebellious, we are close and we are going strong. but sometimes also got quarrel. it's quite a place to be in. no one knows except for us!

July
new gadget, new hope. lost in the zonal competition. take it as an enriching experience.

August
SLIPKNOT'S in town! the gig was good. what do you expect? it's slipknot. it's a once in a lifetime and i hope it's not once. they promised us they will be back. i'm clinging very much on that promise. they gave me hope and the reason to move on in life. very irrelevant, but it applies to me.

October
it's the time where all the people go haywire, studying for O levels. and i have a new found hope. *grins* i sincerely hope everything will work out, but not pinning too much though. *laughs!

November
O level, lethargic as always, doing with whatever stuff i know. and a new band was formed.

December
Have been been busy with lots of stuff. catching up with friends and doing pretty much shitloads of assignment.

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new year resolution? not much.. i'm just trying to be as contented as possible with all the aspects of my life. i wish i could do the best out of it. i will work towards it.

now as for new year's eve. i was out at hok san busy BBQing. it was fun BUT i DO NOT wish to go into the details. because something happened. it's so sudden i have no time to react. URGH! after which, meiling and cai came. they had a chat with the elders while i BBQed some food for them. well, actually just satays. bryan and gang went to esplanade watch fireworks. it seems like they never see before fireworks. crazy people. went to cai's house to play mahjong. well, we took a cab. they are happy wishing the taxi uncle a happy new year while i was quite.. speechless.. killed time while waiting for jiji with mahjong.. he reached like 4 am before we started playing poker. dozed off after jiji suggested watching shows.. slept till 8am. went back home sleep. well, i lost quite a lot of money that night on mahjong. well, maybe not alot. meiling and cai still owe me the cab fare. *laughs!
slept till 1pm, prepared and went back to hok san for voting of new committee, before that was meeting. lots of criticism going on. well, after the voting. i got 4 positions at hok san. reluctant but nonetheless, no choice. slacked till 7pm went home.

as for today, did nothing much. helped out alittle with the housechores, read over 200 pages of 'angels and demons' because my eldest brother so called 'snatch away' the computer from me. so now he's gone. i'm back.

well, i'll update in an hour or so with the friend list. keep it coming guys! it's for the year 2006. hope i don't leave anyone out.

P.S.: if you survive reading through all these, well, this piece of news is not for you, unless you are either junting, claris, jasmine mong or jerry. well, i'm thinking of going to jam twice a month. is that alright with you guys? i'm open with options. keep those comments coming. thanks!

EDIT -
i've updated the friends list. if i ever miss out anyone, tag me and i will update. thanks!

i did a survey which obviously is a hoax. hui wen bluffed me into it. ... i guess the secret's with her. don't tell anyone alright! *laughs.