death lurks

on the birthday of christ, i was given something. something too much for me to handle. thanks santa.

life got it's own ups and downs. i'm really at the downside right now, i've never felt so frustrated and tired before. so much so it have consumed my ability to think straight. i'm really sick in my mind right now. i don't feel like talking face to face, i don't feel like meeting people face to face and i very much would like to be alone. for a long time.

i hate christmas. christmas.. a season of joy? bullshit. frustrations > joy.

GET IT?