fate

i just realised i've just reconciled with my bloody past personality. it sends my blood pumping and boiling when i saw it. something that i deem inappropriate but is it what it is supposed to be? is that within my control? certainly not. i just can't stop thinking the fact that with my character, i may lose everything. EVERYTHING..

to me, everything is one thing. and that one thing which meant everything to me, is making me lose my grip. i've lost my will to struggle and to hang on for my dear life, even though it's under extreme circumstances.

you know what?

i think i lost it

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