stupendous

Listening : Chimaira - nothing remains

spending half a day in hospital doing nothing isn't what i have in mind.. but what to do? i'm worried. i left home without my laptop so i was stranded in the hospital doing nothing while waiting for my grandmother.

she's alright now.. so everything's fine.

after today, it just makes me wonder why am i so... what word should i use? incorrigible? hopeless?

with all the hopes and talks about me.. i'm still not pulling up my socks to prove them wrong. i did it once for my N level chinese. i don't know why i can't find that sudden surge of energy.. the surge of energy that i had when my chinese teacher diss me and push me down saying that i will fail my chinese..

i proved him wrong.

but where's the surge of energy now? it's gone, disappear in thin air, away in mars..