screwed

why is it that i always have the feeling my life's screwed even before recent happenings.

my whole body's cold, breaking into cold sweats every night, every now and then.. i'm not happy anymore. until the day those things are solved and goes away.. then i'll be happy.

i'm having insomnia. i'm losing my appetite. i'm losing my interest to everything and anything. i have no mood for everything and anything. i have no motivation.. AT ALL.. i feel disgusted by everything.

money triggers it all.