18th day... life sux~!

sch starts this few days... got to see her in sch... ~!~!~ ... so happie~~! can see her cute face~! but.. the feeling's all coming back once again~! argh~! how m i goin to forget her like this.. hmm...

secondly.. i may not have the time to update this blog bcoz...
1: my brother say our com is spied by spyware... then dun let us use... crazy shit..
2: need to prepare for O levels la... haha...

all in all school sucks...~! was caught for long hair for 2 consecutive days... bo pian... go cut botak.. wa lao... damn shit sia... then go for detention today... damn bored but.. got a few buddies there to keep mi company.. haha... thanks guys~! and also today take class photo... was fun.. somemore last yr liao... muz take nice nice one.. then buy all of them... haha... ermx... have to go take a nap... then take dinner then go do hmk le... muz realli work hard.. a promise is meant not to b broken...

P.S.: Jasmine~! u bitch... it's veri veri veri funny~! haha.... hahahahahahahahaha~~!!

"Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me...the problem with me is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you."

which angel are u?

Cool Ways to Kill Yourself

Explosives Strapped to Your Body

Difficulty level: 7

Get a LOT of explosives. The more the better. Hook up a detonator to an altimeter. Set it for 100-200 feet. That will give you good dispersion. Mix vaseline and gasoline in a bucket. Find a really tall building. Something like the World Trade Center (not anymore, but you get the idea) is perfect and is in a sufficiently crowded area to generate the proper sized crowd. Get an extra large trench coat, ski mask, duct tape and a lighter. Bring your materials to the top of your building. Liberally apply the vaseline-gasoline mixture to your entire body. Duct tape the explosives around your legs, arms, head and torso. The more you use the better. You cannot overdo this. Attach the altimeter to the explosives. Put on the trench coat and mask so that the explosives are not visible. Start ranting and throwing things so that you are sure to attract notice. Drag this part out as long as possible. Say anything that comes to mind but try to stay away from real problems. Your love life DOES NOT make for a good sound bite. Ask for news cameras from the major networks. Pace around a lot while waving your arms. DO NOT let on that you have explosives on your body. The police will clear the area and you definitely don't want that. When you've gotten the crowd to a fevered pitch, when the helicopters are hovering like vultures, whip off the jacket and set yourself on fire. Wait until you are completely engulfed in flame then jump. Try to steer yourself towards the crowd. That way flaming falling body parts will pelt the fleeing onlookers when you explode. Congratulations! You've just made history.

15th day... haix... it hard u know....

oh god... it's realli hard to forget her... i wish i could juz like tat *snap*... a snap on my fingers but... haix... so damn difficult to forget a person as in... not totally forget? i can't juz really leave her alone... n neva care abt her any more... on top of tat... she's still my god-sis... it's realli a difficult task for me... haix..

ok... well.. stated in my previous blog that i m goin to mr san's art exhibition? well guess wat? a sudden change of plan... jiji n demin msged mi in msn callin mi to go watch 'Best Bet'.. think tat all jack neo's movie realli reflects out the true singaporean... or i would say typical singporeans... tat's my opinion... was late... as usual.. had a bowl of dessert before the movie... went in... hmm... overall... was hilarious... the hokkien.. the sudden change of events... recommend u guys to go watch it... if u have not... then went to west coast le... trained my dragon drum... taught gen abt the 'da luo'... but mostly we r slackin... haha... had fun.. after tat.. end of training... pei jun jie go kfc... kapo his mash potato n coleslaw... haha... then went hm le... n here i m... think gonna end here.... tat bitch is still bitchin ard with mi... damn... when's she ever gonna stop? hmm... *wondering*

14th day... it rekindles... hiax... back to square one...

it rekindles when yesterday i saw her for the first time in holidays... she's so... *****... haha... dun wish to say... haha... hmm... back to square one again? think it's not gonna fade away so easily... mayb it's fate bax... starting to fade away but when it's progressing... it rekindles again.. haix... but still can't say a thing abt it to her... juz can treat her as my mei... n not someone i like.. muz change tat attitude before i start to treat her like wat i did the last time...

yesterday.. woke up early.. prepare for sch's chud sai... reach there quite early... prepared alot of things... then set off to clementi town... reach there veri early... the first one.. even the clementi town ppl also neva expect us to arrive so early... aha.. then reached there... moved the things to the hall... went to buy lunch for the whole troupe with bing nan... went to the hawker centre... saw ah kok... haha... so cute... then went back.. had lunch... then start performing le... went to the hall see the 'dian jing' then see clementi town perform... then 3 other sch troupes perform then... our sch liao... the performance was alright... then went to have tea break... then go back see clementi town de alumni perform... saw who is raymond n alvin... then when everithin over... went back to sch liao... before leavin the sch... waved goodbye to raymond... kinda friendly but not his face... haha... then crapped all the way back to sch... then keep everithin then went to hawker with jiji n jian hui... crapped n had dinner... but not mi.. haha... then went hm... stick to the com until 10... went off to bed cause veri tired... haha... then today... woke up... thought abt her again... haix.. today gonna go mr san the art exhibition.. see him n his art pieces... aha... then go to west coast cc... got it all planned out le... haha... tata...

13th day... haix... slowly progressing?

today woke up late as usual... went to school quite late... they alreadi got the tables done... then i was like extra... go there for nothing... haha... then see they train for tml's GMH... did nothing... slacked slacked slacked... had lots of fun? hmm... looking forward for tml's GMH... haha... then wei ting call mi pei her go bugis with yee fong n shu xian.. then went there... see them take neoprint... i was like nth to do.. so went to sony play PS 2... haha... then went to library with wei ting... she kinda.. in a bad mood.. so pei her lorx... dun wish to say more abt it... then went hm... this evonne ahx.. keep callin mi.. then from 4++ until now... she's still on my phone... haha.. guess i enjoy talkin to her? hmm... haha... ok.. gotta stop here... kinda short today... tired.. haha...

11th and 12th day... kinda miss her alot alreadi...

damn... can i go back my words now? realli regretted sayin wanted to give her up.. but wat's the point... n it's of no use... haix... damn sad... miss her alotx but can't tell her... can onli like hide in a corner n continue to admire her? hmm... damn saddening...

ok... 2 days neva blog ler... lazy? guess so... haha.... start with yesterday.. went to had a check up with my mum then off i go to meet von n shu hui... damn.. they keep callin to go there faster.. say wad ermx... we are waitin for u to start studyin then i was like.. ok? haha... reached there.. in the end say wat wait for mi are all bullshits de... also neva realli study.. keep sayin wanna sleep... dotx... haha... then at ard 4.30pm? left the bedok mac.. went to pei them go return library books.. on the way.. saw an incident.. an owner of a maid is holdin on to the maid... then i was like wat's happening? thne when the police came... the owner say.. i want u to handcuff her... haha... then followed the crowd into a staircase... then police went to tok to the owner and the maid.. then return the books first.. then went back see show again.. haha... then overheard the owner say the maid run away from the house and the maid agency... and somemore steal her money... haha... then i was like... calling them to go but shu hui kept on sayin wanna see... siaox... then after tat went to play pool... saw yenny n her stead there... no wonder i cannot beat yenny... because she got her stead to teach her ma... haha... then went hm ler lo... slacked all the way then sleep... woke up in the middle of the night suddenly feel like calling von... tok to her for a while then go back sleep again.. haha... stupid mi.. haha

today... woke up unusually late... dunno y also... the alarm has been soundin for 2 hrs but i juz can't wake up.. haha... then did everithin quickly then left the house.. reached sch... help paint the tables for a while.. then they train their drums i pei shu hui tok for a whilr... then jian cong came.. then crapped all the way.. then decided go von house... when reached there... nothin to do... kinda pissed off by von but decided to heck abt it cause she my mei ma... bo pian.. then the 2 girls like siao de... play until so high for wad... some more keep playin the song toxic... dotx... then at 5 somethin left her house... came home.. had a haircut... then here i m typin this thing... goin to watch THE EXCORCIST again... haha... bcoz tat time at midnight cannot on loud.. then dunno wad's the story line.. gonna watch again... haha... THE END....

9th and 10th day.. still counting on...

neva come in and blog yesterday... was busy the whole day... didn't have the time to come in and blog... yesterday woke up at ard 10am? damn it.. knew i was late for my training... but still stayed at home.. watched abit of GUESS GUESS GUESS... i was late aniway.. so y not enjoy myself first? haha.. then went to hok san.. wah~! so damn few ppl sia... i mean the seniors la... onli got jiji, wah zai n demin nia... damn.. then got 2 new juniors join hok san... forgot their name... haha.. onli remembered one is called wei xian... haha... then was selected to play cymbal(again) in the performance on 12 Aug... which is organized Long Shi... trained awhile with the drum and the performing ppl... then went to have roasted pig n duck... damn it was nice... then after we finish.. tat stupid lame ass jiji go make the 'zhen zi' on the plate using the sauce... wa lao... damn hilarious... after tat went back to hok san... brushed up my dragon drum with the help of jiji... then played awhile with the dragon instrument... then... slack........ haha... watched vcds n i was tired so i went to take a nap...was woken up by jiji n nicholas with all the 'da luo n xiao bo' stupid sia... damn it.. it was ard 5pm? then went to had nasi lemak with jiji... haha... too bad he neva see the drumstick.. damn nice... so crispy... haha.... then went to jiji house for awhile... did nth.. slacked all the way with the com n his tv... then received a call from demin say at ard 7.30pm like tat the 'sin tua' reach 'cheng huang miao'... damn... took a bus.. heard a guy... so damn stupid... keep shoutin to a phone.. dunno y also.. say wad.. 'hello, richard? ya... how's ur father's day.. eh... u r not a friend man.. u treat mi like shit.. if u still treat mi as a friend u wun pressurize mi in this way...' then continue all the way throughtout the journey... haha.. even after he left the bus... he's still on the phone.. haha... had a nice chat on the bus with an auntie.. then when reach singapore post... stupid jiji say.. 'eh take taxi there la...' then i was like.. stupid sia.. haha... didn't want to miss a moment of it too... so took a taxi... after tat... saw the 'sin tua' wa lao.. damn big sia.. so mani hell gods... then finally saw 'tua di sa ah pek' together... the 'sa ah pek' is holdin on to a lantern saying 'filial'... so u guys out there.. who is unfilial to ur parents will get punished by 'sa ah pek' in hell... so treat ur parents well k... then saw a god... chuak tio.. holdin on to a head sia... then i was like... wa lao... but the head is fake one la... but damn realistic sia... then went back to the 'sin tua' had a long chat with jiji n demin... but actualli most of it is they both do the talkin i keep quiet down there... haha... after the whole thing... went to have supper then pei jiji walk back to his bus stop... damn he is crappy... fancy catchin all my misleading words... stupid sia... crapped all the way... then his bus came n we go seperate ways lo... haha... walked home... bathed... had a chat with both my meis... then off to sleep...

"I tried to love you from afar, but I realized that it's useless that's why I have to say I love you...goodbye."

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8th day... bored~!

it's the 8th day... kept thinkin abt her since last night... was missin her all the way... heck... i may give up.. but tat doesn't mean i dun like her... i may perservere but it's up to the time to decide if i will forget her... haix...

was so damn bored today... SIAN~! SIAN ~! SIAN~! this morning woke up quite late.. ard 9am? realised NO ONE'S AT HOME~! damn... got lots of things to do... but first thing.. on the computer... haha... came online... chat with Fangx for awhile... then did the laundry.. bathed then went to TKSS... was so late... haha... on the way... met ern ern in the bus... chatted all the way to TKSS... did my painting.. as usual... mrs tan kept callin mi to finish my layout.. but was so lazy to do it.. so did my painting all the way... then ard 2... left TKSS with andrea, imelx n yenny.. but they are leavin for home.. so i did the same.. went home.. came online... nth to do.. SIANS~!

"I love you but I can't express it because I know deep in my heart that you could never be mine."

7th day... n i m still thinkin... haix...

1st week tryin to forget her.. but.. no avail... was still talkin abt it with my friends juz now... tried to console me... thanks GEN~! will talk abt it later...

this morning... woke up... washed up... blogged for a while... as u can see in the previous blog... then prepared to go to TKSS... was late alreadi but still on msn talkin to jasmine... haha... then got everithing ready.. got out of the house... realised i had left somethin behind the house... went back to take it... while i was wearin it... my bro stormed into my room... demanded for his discman... kept on wailing n wailing abt my attitude... shoot him back at everi chance i've got... got money so wat? money can't get u everithin... at least i know my money is in good hands and i know how to handle them... regretted goin back to the house... but heck... reached TKSS... FINALLY got THE EXCORCIST from jasmine... gonna enjoy it later... haha... at there did my painting... then goin to b the end of the lesson... andrea kept on callin mi to faster as i did not hand in my layout n have to stay back to finish it... then i rushed my way out of the class with imelda and andrea... haha... havin left the room... heard the teacher calling my name... ran even faster~! haha.... then got ot of the sch... went to wait for the bus 16 to go katong eat katong laksa with imelx.. damn~! one of the bus driver dunno where his eyes grow one... flag him liao still drive off... was furious at tat moment... my middle finger just shot out of my hand... haha... dreaded.... have to wait for another bus... talked alot of things while waitin... the bus came... boarded n not long after.. alight the bus.. bid good byes to andrea and we go eat katong laksa... had quite a nice chat with imelx... then went back hm... at hm nth to do... come online for awhile then go for lion dance trainin at west coast... as usual... taught Cai Yun 'tong xing gu' n Gen de dragon drum... heck the little kid... haha... had fun... brushed up my 'lei gu'... haha... then when they come back from dragon trainin... received a veri bad news from demin.. had to perform dragon drum in august... DIE~! my dragon drum so lousy... muz brush up again... haix... after tat... went to the bus stop... pei all my friends wait for the bus... while waitin for the bus... talked abt the thing with Gen.. when the bus came.. she say later sms mi abt the thing.. dotx... i took the initiative to msg her first.. she consoled mi alot... again thanks Gen~! came hm... had dessert tat mum bought.. then here i m... writin this post.. haha.. gotta enjoy THE EXCORCIST later... haha... shall stop here... kinda long winded....

"It is so sad to be with someone you thought you love, only to realize later that your heart belongs and will always long for the person you left behind."

the 6th n 7th day... and still counting~~

damn it~! didn't blog yesterday bcoz my god damn bro is as usual hogging on the computer.. can't use it... damn it...so i have to update this morning... damn it~! hate it when this happens... muz recall wat happen yesterday...

hmm... yesterday... was quite a bad day man... kinda like... where have all the people gone to? dead? damn it... early in the morning... woke up.. decided... have not finish the 20 layouts so might as well go do DnT... haha... so i went to sch... was lazy to do anithin.. as usual.. made some amendments in my design... then off i go to evonne's house... know tat Fangx is meetin mei today... so i was like... the day before yesterday.. mei was complainin tat she's havin a real bad fever so i dropped by her house to give her a surprise to see if she's ok... on the way from sch to ubi... msged Fangx.. haha... it was total crap sia.. kept jokin abt the brendan thingy.. then when i reach ubi.. nth to do.. go find a place where got sell newspaper... but wat the hell~! they doesn't sell newspapers in ubi~! shit... then i went to the senior citizen corner downstair mei's house.. then sat there doin 3 things at one time... listening to slipknot, msging Fangx and readin a magazine... then when i saw Fangx msg say stop sayin abt the brendan thingy... feels tat she kinda angry so... it's time for mi to stop the craps... waited there for ard 1 hr before Fangx came... kept on complainin sian sian sian... i also know... at that point of timei also sian sian sian.. haha... kept callin mei but no avail.. then went to call weiting... craps mans... i kept on crapping n she is like *blur*... haha... then went to weiting's house for awhile... cracked some realli cold jokes there... then weiting say wanna go aljunied mac go meet her DADA... then we go with her lo... at that point of time she's wearing a teddy bear shirt n shorts ma... then i kept tellin her... her dressing is veri odd.. but she juz wun listen to me... damn it... oh well.. went there... as usual... BORED... weiting go tian mi mi with her DADA n mi n FAngx sit down there... realli nth to do... then after we eat... tried callin evonne again... FINALLY~! got through.. she answered.. ask her if we could go to her house... she said ok.. and off we go... reached her house... talk talk talk... computer computer computer... evonne... i would realli like to go ur house for overnight stay.. i've been wantin to meet tat thing for a veri long time.. i guess i have found the right place...*grins* then at 5.30pm... left her house... on the way to the lift...realised.. left my hp at mei's house.. went back there... mei's kinda grumbling ya know.. haha.. then went back home... bathed... had dinner... half way doin my art.. half way chattin on the phone... then at ard 11.30pm... my 2 mei call mi to conference... at tat point of time i m realli like... want to sleep liao... but they continue to talk without me... they kept on calling mi to wake up... but i m veri tired ya know.. then at ard 12.30am... they hung up.. i didn't hear a thing except for my mei mei last senstence... "kor kor.. u go sleep la.. dun disturb u le... muackx" they she hung up the phone.. then i went back to sleep..

as usual.. today... i'm not goin to blog tonite... mayb tml morning or tml... have to go for lion dance trainin at west coast cc... guess i will b back at ard midnight again...

"Love is the way I feel when I can't imagine my life without you."

it's ranting time... it's the 5th day...

time to rant... pardon all my vulgar language~! u know wad? my bro set the computer so tat he is the adminstrator... he can do anithin but i can't... wat the fuck is this? i can't install a shit... i can't use this.. i can't use tat? wat the fuck?! he thought i will go n anyhow download things... shit man... without all tat... i'm still able to get slipknot videos... so y bother doin tat... now... they can install games n i can't... it's fuckin bored man... all i can do is online online online n nothin else... i can't play any games they install... will say access denied access denied... hey... y not u juz forbid mi using the computer u fuck face... if u happen to see this... ask ur conscience... are u doin the right thing u asshole~! u r being plain selfish... n dun say ever come to ask help from mi... i will neva ever help u in any way... u wan to do this to mi... u will b sinned for life... for being selfish... u will get punished by the almighty satan... u r juz sinning urself... being such a selfish asshole... selfish is a sin~! SINNED FOR LIFE~! that's all i've got to say.. if u so happens to see this... search ur conscience...

today... again.. another boring day.. everiday is boring to mi... i juz dunno y... woke up.. washed up.. came online for awhile... as u can see in my previous blog... then went for art lesson.. damn boring.. have to do the 20 layouts... fuck shit... but i heck.. kept on drawing slipknot's mask... haha... after tat.. went to have KFC with jasmine n fishy fishy... haha.. talk alot of craps... then fishy say i look so haggard with my beard n all... then say i look like one of the harry potter's character 'Hagrid'... dotx... in the KFC.. dunno y jas keep sayin FAT ASS FAT ASS... dumb girl then say slipknot's songs are like pot n pans clashing together... fuck her mans.. haha... the she say no.5 - craig jones's mask look like toilet brush... use to clean toilet... dotx~! then the KFC is playin classical music... then she say.. imagine marilyn manson singing all these songs... -_-"... haha.. then left the KFC then fishy go hm as she needs to renew her passport.. then jas also went hm... then went to meet wen xin at ard 2.30pm.. went to a place where it will rekindle all the fond memories... the place where i have alot of happiness comes back to my memories.. tot abt alot of things... between mi n her... but now come to think of it.. it's veri sweet but kinda sad too... hiax.. then ard after 20mins...wen xin reached.. got the chemistry notes... then go hm le... came back... did nth.. chat on msn with yunfang all the way... then tried to psycho her into slipknot... but failed... haha... ok... stop here le... wan go sleep le... DIE~! heaven finish art~! heck... haha...

"When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness and look down upon the ground. Instead, keep your head high and gaze into the heavens, for that is where your heart has been sent to heal."

bored to death... 4th & 5th day...

damn... damn... damn... i'm still thinkin... i'm still thinkin.. i'm still thinkin... damn...

yesterday was such a boring day... damn... started off my day by sewing my school uniform... the button dropped off u know... damn... they juz keep on dropping n i have to keep on sewing... shit... while sewing... received a call from jas at 9am.. "i think i overslept... muahahaha.." i was like... oh.. ok... nvm... juz take ur time... haha... then got ready n everithin at ard 9.30am? received a call from yin yu... wanted to meet mi n jas to go TKSS together... met her at the bus-stop at the kallang market... she was like... so sleepy? haha... she slept at 6am in the morning tat particular morning n woke up at 9am... haha... then saw ming tai... he tagged along... finalli~! jas came in the bus 31... damn she's so late... but heck... haha... went to the 7-11 n bought a mash potato? haha... she said it was good... but i doubted it... haha... went on board bus 33... the bus uncle kept lookin at jasmine to see if she had littered in the bus with the mash potato in hand... nevertheless... jas littered the bus with it... and we got off the bus... met barbie doll and walk in to TKSS together... when we reach the quadrangle.. mr ong shouted at us.. "faster~! the class start already.." then we still slowly walk to the classroom... stupid... stood there for a good whole 20 mins juz listening to a collage expert telling us how to do... collage.. damn.. then went back to individual seat.. did our back ground n collage... had fun with ming tai, wai kok and jiji... haha... my background was black n white.. mr ong saw it n asked mi... wat's ur theme? i was like... DUNNO~? haha.. mr ong laughed and say "DUNNO~?!" haha... damn hilarious... n before mr ong leave he told mi... bye mr black n white... haha... after the art... was suppose to meet weiting... in the end i ruined it all... haha... met xiao hui for awhile since she's juz nearby n she's bored waitin for sarah... accompanied her for awhile... met sarah... then i go home... did nth but sleep sleep n sleep... couldn't use the com until now bcoz my bro was hogging on the com last night... damn... guess today's gonna b a veri boring day for mi too... got to get ready for art lesson right now... tonite.. if i can use the com.. i will rant on somethin... stupid shit...

a new chapter day 2...

i'm starting to miss her... damn... got to forget her... got to forget as the person whom i like... got to remember tat i m now her god bro... GOT TO~! mayb it takes time? or mayb i'm juz pushin myself too hard? hmm... i dunno abt tat... juz like tat jasmine told mi today.. 'u r always missin her n u r missin her almost everiday...'... she's right... i juz can't forget her... oh well.. let nature takes its course...

starting of a boring day... woke up at 9am... cleaned up... had breakfast...then went off to sch for my DnT... damn... got to finish by the whole of this week n next week.. saw fabian doin DnT too... n juz knew somethin new from him tat X Japan's guitarist was dead n the band is disbanded... is tat for real? i dunno... got to check tat out... then i was so frustrated by hammering my drawers.. kept on making my wood crack... shit stuff.. haha... after tat... at 1pm... was abt to leave sch... saw xue li n a bunch of CO ppl then went to have lunch with them.. talkin abt lunch... i'm totally shocked by my lunch.. i ordered a plate of chicken rice from a chicken rice stall... then the uncle came with my chicken rice in his hand... when he placed the plate on the table i was like... i didn't order a whole chicken~? n thinkin how much will it be... THE WHOLE IS PLATE IS FULL OF CHICKEN~! I CAN'T EVEN SEE THE RICE FROM IT~!~! then the uncle say $3.. i was like... all these for $3? are u kiddin me... the friends around mi is also like 'wa~!' haha... then heck lo... paid the $3 then eat lo... chatted with them til ard 2.30pm? then called jasmine to pei mi go buy things at city hall... met her at her house there... then went to take mrt to city hall... went to shopped ard Raffles City... then went to citilink's delifrance to let jasmine take her lunch... ordered a grilled gratein meal and gave mi the small peach pie of hers... how sweet... haha... then went to suntec... on our way to guardian... saw weiting.. alamak... stick her tongue out when she saw mi n i was like... siao... then i bleahx her back... haha... then jas told mi... ehx.. go to delifrance again lehx, i wanna eat the potato gratin... i was like... dotx.. then bo pian pei her go lo... then i went to buy the yami yogurt n eat... after she finished her stuff... we went to guardian buy jas's stuff then went to carrefour to get my stuff... then walked back to city hall n pei jasmine take mrt go back kallang.. then i came home after tat... all the way... we are like talkin abt the prank call tat she sent mi? haha...

damn... now waitin for my god damn bro to come back and have dinner... watchin 'sun wukong... last episode liao... should b interestin... haha... ok la... muz stop here le... go n have dinner... the reason y i blog this early bcoz i need to study tonite.. surprised? i'm surprised too... haha... got to keep my promises...

"To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back."

a new chapter for our relationship... the 1st day...

should i b happy or should i b sad? hmm... i have alreadi sorted out everithin with her... i told her abt everithin and all... we are still friends... no... i should say... siblings... at least i know i can with her foreva as her god-brother... i'm alreadi veri happie with tat... i and her find tat we can communicate with each other betta this way... should i have done this a long time ago? mayb i m juz being stubborn... not givin up and all.. i can't possibly say i dun have any feelings for her right now... that's a big fat lie if i tell u tat i don't... but i will try to forget her as a person whom i like... or i would not... and continue to admire her as who she is... but not telling her? if she's happy... i will b happy too... tat's all... i will not forget all the fun and laughter she brought to me... all the things she had done for me... deeply appreciated... if u can see this by chance... juz wanna say a veri big thank you to u... for doin everithin tat u have done for me and all... thank you~!

today... as usual... was a boring but was quite a fun day too... woke up quite late... left hm at 10.25am knowing tat i will b late for my trainin.. haha... reach hok san at ard 11.15am... but damn pathetic... onli a few ppl there... trained my drum with nicholas's 'bai si men'... then realise tat my 'lei gu' damn sucks... dun even have the constant speed and was like havin the same beat together? guess gonna buck up my drumming.. shucks... after trainin went to hawker centre and had 'chao guo tiao' as my lunch... dunno y... today no appetite... hmm... on our way to the hawker centre.. pass by kreta ayer cc and u know wad we saw?? 'xu chun mei yan chang hui' and i was like.. yucks~! an ugly girl in taiwan became so famous and even have a 'yan chang hui' somemore... dotx... i think william hung is even better than her... at least william hung is not bad looking... inspirational and have not a bad voice... not like her... dreaming all the way... 'wo yao dang xuan tai wan di yi ren nu zong tong'... stop dreaming la... stupid... pukex... aniway... went back to hok san after lunch... stayed there for a chat session... a vcd session.. and a dragon drum trainin session then went to kevin's house to play computer and PS 2... was there and i was like.. i've got no childhood? haha... kept losing to kevin with the game Super Mario... haha... then went to my neighbourhood... old kallang airport with jiji.. had dinner with him and mum called to kpkb and call mi to go hm cause she's waitin for her dinner? she called mi to buy her dinner u know... haha.. then came back... had a bath and here i m... in front of this com again... haha... guess i have to buck up with my studies starting from tml... cannot slack animore... muz have the self-discipline and self-motivation... I MUZ~! as i promised her to work hard for O levels this yr...

"Letting go has never been easy, but holding on can be as difficult, for strength is measured not by holding on but by letting go."

Hi guys~! i'm back~!

First... i would like to say i'm back to bloggin... feels that life is so borin... need somethin to spice up my life... so i'm back to bloggin...

Second... i would like to say... wat i write in here is the writings of my life... so if u see somethin tat i wrote is too sensitive to u or u think it's somethin wrong... fuck off n dun ever come back n see it... i appreciate tat...

*u know why? Eng hua was there.. he is so call spying on xXx.. and so dun let me go near xXx.. dotz.. then he give a black face when we walk out together lor.. so erm.. we will like that parted.. dotz eng hua.. dun like him and if he know who xXx like he will cry i tell u.. and i can say i know who "he" is lor.. ha ha.. ur closest friend is ur worst enermy.. ha ha~~*

*look up there* see this? u feel insulted if u r me? will u b pissed off by this action did by some bastard guy by the name... hmm... JUN KAI... HEY~! TELL U WAT... I'M NOT GONNA SAY U R BAD OR WAD... I WUN BACKSTAB U IN ANY WAY... I WUN B LIKE U... SUCH A COWARD~!~! I'M HERE TO PUT DOWN A CHALLENGE TO U TAT IF U DARE TO BACKSTAB MI ONE MORE TIME.. U WILL KNOW WAT I WILL DO... IF U R UNHAPPY WITH MI.. COME AND TALK TO MI FACE TO FACE... DUN B SUCH A WIMP WILL U? AND GET UR FUCKIN FACTS RIGHT BEFORE U JUMP TO CONCLUSION...

thirdly... i'm here to say tat i n xXx is officially over... i wun pester her animore... i wun say a thing abt her animore... but she's till my friend... if she treat me as one..

hiax.. today is so damn boring... was woken up by my niece at 7.48am askin if i want to conference anotx... n i was like... it's early in the morning... hello? who would conference early in the morning? mayb they r the onli ones? haha... last week's saturday i was with yolane... n when we parted she left somethin with mi n i have to give it to her by today... diaox... left home at 8.30am... was lazy to take bus to school so i took a cab... haha... reached school and after i pass yolane's things, went to do my DnT... thought i could finish my drawers by today but mr suhaimi said there's a remedials for the sec ones so i have to stop doin my work at 10.15am... n i was like wat the hell... nvm... after DnT went home.. and as usual on the computer till now.. was starin at it since.. 11 am? my eye sight's gonna deteoriate... tat's abt all for today? hmm...