busy busy!

cook out session tomorrow

wednesday to friday chalet.

busy busy.. will try to blog once i get back from chalet!

uni?

that day, jerry asked me for my opinion, should be go overseas to study? he even discussed with zr and they want to venture overseas for a degree together. i gave him my honest opinion. then he post me a question.

'you got plans to go uni?'

well, jerry. here's your answer.

it's always been that i'll never step into a university since the thought of 'have been studying for the past 15 years' have been on my mind for the longest time. i even told my parents. i'm not going to university. period. of course, my mum gave me hell of a time, bitching.. never have i really sat down and consider which university to go to? whether to go overseas or not?

actually i did, it was when i went to thailand. i really gave thought about going to US to study audio engineering. but the cost of it is just... HIGH. after i came back from thailand, i thought of taking study loans and bank loans to study in US but you need to either be a PR or have a citizen in US to be your gurantor. you need to be there for at least 2 years to appeal for a PR status.

as i mentioned above, recently, after jerry told me about his plans and zr's plans. that really got me thinking, what are my plans? go there work for 2 years for the study fee and at the same time apply for PR status, then continue to study for 2 years? or work my ass off in singapore to go to US to study? or to study the course in singapore?

before that... i have serve 2 years in NS? which recently, i just received the letter for medical checkup.. SIAN AH! NB...

best friend?

why am i always a best friend? WHAT IS best friend? i will make myself autistic if someone says i'm their best friend again. i don't want to be a best friend. what does it mean to be a best friend? am i just a best friend and that's it? it's sad, i'm just a nobody. i'm just what you all always say, a best friend..

你从不知道，我想做的不只是朋友。

exams

zr is disturbing me to update already.

first things first. i'm glad that i passed my exams. i don't know if it's self deceiving but i think that proves a point to me.


thanks zhen ru and jerry for staying up with me even though they didn't really saw my results while we are at jerry's house.

well, i'm very glad that all my friends passed their exams. and i'm quite pissed off at the same time. don't do projects also can pass one ah. really makes me wonder you know! if i can go back time, i would rather be the one that everyone hates but still gets to pass my exams with other people's project! really pissed off. BIG TIME.

well well, have been hitting the gym alot this few days. in fact, i'm going again tomorrow. -.-

well, yesterday went out with the ellas. fun but at the same time.. disastrous. i wouldn't say what exactly took place. someone's going to break my neck if i do! so i better keep a mum about it.
and that someone's still owing that entry that he have been saying.

it's getting late. i don't know what i ate that upsets my stomach but hell it's been grumbling alot and it seems like there's someone churning in there. ALWAYS. sucks.

worned out

i'm tired. i'll blog tomorrow.