disappointment

it's really disappointing, when you planned that you are going to spend like a couple or so to go out and search for the things you want. in the end, you came home empty handed. i was SO upset.

items that i'm currently looking for.
- shaker aluminium ware. those that are used to make cocktails kind of shaker, which can be seperated in the middle.
- little shooter glass aka shot glass.
- bols blue
- jagermeister

i went to the place where that's most likely to find these items. plaza singapura. daiso's around there, carrefour's over there. i remember seeing both items except for the bols blue on the shelves of daiso. i went there today, enquired, out of stock. i end up getting something that i already had. a wine opener.

then i went to carrefour to find bols blue. they do have it, but the price is kind of.. exhorbitant. same with the jagermeister. so i thought, maybe i will head down to bugis to get it cause i heard someone saying that 'try your luck at those ulu ulu shops around bencoolen.' and so i did. except for the usual JD and absolut, nothing fancies me. i left the shop.

i headed down to the supplier store at geylang. NONE sold. so i guess i head back home.

i guess, all in all, i still have to go back to another supplier. it's like a merry go round.

times are bad

in times like these.. true friends surfaces.. you finally see their true colours.



'患难见真情'



thanks for all your concern.. i'm a wee bit better now because of you guys.. i'll try to do everything i can..

angst

i'm so blowing my top now.. i'm trying my best to keep my cool but obviously, my efforts are going down the drain.

a couple of events led to this situation where i feel like shouting out in despair in the middle of the night.

i never wanted the world to be better, i just want it to suffer. I'll make you eat your words and fucking pay. mark my words

stupendous

Listening : Chimaira - nothing remains

spending half a day in hospital doing nothing isn't what i have in mind.. but what to do? i'm worried. i left home without my laptop so i was stranded in the hospital doing nothing while waiting for my grandmother.

she's alright now.. so everything's fine.

after today, it just makes me wonder why am i so... what word should i use? incorrigible? hopeless?

with all the hopes and talks about me.. i'm still not pulling up my socks to prove them wrong. i did it once for my N level chinese. i don't know why i can't find that sudden surge of energy.. the surge of energy that i had when my chinese teacher diss me and push me down saying that i will fail my chinese..

i proved him wrong.

but where's the surge of energy now? it's gone, disappear in thin air, away in mars..

getting drunk is really not what i have in mind. it's all for the fun.

stayed up 2 nights to get drunk and wasted. but fortunately, i'm just tipsy and not drunk.

world that surprises

Watching : lamb of god - now you've got something to die for

this particular store which is located at the 1st level of my flat pisses me off. usually, upon last resort, we will then reluctantly go there to get any stuff that we want.

yesterday i was dead hungry at night. i thought of having cookies and milk for dinner. so i went to the usual store to see if i can get the cookies. well, the store closed for the day so i went to try my luck at the other store. true enough, they don't have it too. so reluctantly, i proceed to that shop.

i went in, i saw the cookies but it's peanut buttered ones. i wanted those chocolate chips variety. i saw a box of it unopened. so i went ahead to asked the auntie if they have. the auntie blatantly say 'oh, don't have. no more already.' i was like looking at the box of unopened cookies in front of her. she saw my reaction but still repeatedly say, 'no more, no more.' it got me pissed i just leave the store and go to another one to just get a gardenia bread and settle with that as my dinner.

NA BEI, TIU AH