wowed

Listening : Nothing

i was wowed by this shit when i was browsing www.soft.com.sg. it's the new mrt line. but when it's all done. we should be driving already. but i'm still wowed by it. take a look at it.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v338/deadhell/blog/MrtMap.jpg

frustrated

Watching : Children of Bodom - In Your Face

this few days, have not been blogging due to 2 main reasons.

1. My damn brother hogged on the computer, so i haven't been using for like 5 days until i changed the ip address to loop back address. he doesn't know how to change it. so here i am.

2. i am in no mood to update because i'm frustrated by something. something which meant alot to me. but obviously it doesn't give a shit.

shan't blog the usual stuff happening in school. it will seriously BORE down you guys.

yesterday, after school, went to jerry house to do some drum whacking. but due to his brother at home. can't do much of whacking but some soft beatings. so not high. so i've decided to go khairul's house to do some drum whacking the next time round. jammed on the guitar, or i should say, he pin pointing all my mistakes. my hand positions and the common mistakes. then learned a few stuff from him. still practicing hard because i want to keep myself occupied. prevent myself from thinking anything shitty. left his house at around 5pm.

went to peninsula to get cables and string. but all in all. got none of them due to budget and they don't have the cables we wanted. which they will restock it on monday. went to took jerry's guitar. his headstock got whacked! the person was trying to get the guitar back into the shop when bang.. the headstock hit the corner of the door. you should've seen jerry's face. damn hilarious i tell you.

went to have indian food. it's nice. so nice that my stomach kept giving me stupid calls for nothing twice and third time it shit the fuck out. but seriously. don't have indian food with an empty stomach. you will end up like me.

seperated ways with jerry, met up with the peeps of PM0504K. huifen reported sick so we went to jie's work place to eat. i didn't eat though. it's expensive down there. i'll be a moron if i'm going to spend to much on it on account that i already had my dinner. had lime juice and dews of the rock. some stupid people just don't know how to fucking think, fancy staring at someone like me. and dare not stare back when i stare at them. stupid fucks. stared a couple of people there. gangsterism is stupid. just don't like the feeling of being stared at.

*note* jie, don't be sad over your ex. he's not worthy for you. look for someone better which will treat you better.

went to play pool after that. after that went home. sleep. that's all for now.

stressed

Listening : Roadrunners United - Annihilation By The Hands Of God

was kind of stressed out this few days after paulo announced the date for the final exams of radio comm. it's like all the exams are all packed together. science practical, school exams then O levels. i've got strive for it. i have to study! STUDY!

yesterday, went to chu dragon with SP. went to wei jing's place to gather. was kind of late. in fact very late. but after all it's still okay. trained a few times. took bus to the destination. the feeling's kind of a little strange? first time chu chi take bus. ... oh well. had loads of fun. performance time a few mistakes here and there. skin came off but it's all okay. today chu hoksan for lantern festival. tomorrow again another performance, also for lantern festival. oh well. not much of a hype this few days. that's all.

empty

listening: Nothing

it's always been the fact that i like to think too much. i'm always thinking what the hell is wrong with my life and still i can't sort it out. my friends adviced me. you are thinking far too much. but once again. the thing people do, the thing my "FRIENDS" do set me thinking.

how insignificant am i to all my friends? i am the one always got left behind. you guys never cared. NEVER. how many people actually can put their hand over their chest and swear in front of me that you actually cared. if you dare to do that in front of me, i will compliment you, but nonetheless i will say you are fucking bullshitting. all you guys ever do is criticise and criticise but none, and i said NONE of you actually think about yourself in the first place before you criticise. i'm just so insignificant. you need help, you will think of me. to think i will still render my help willingly. when you don't need me. you can forget that there's this person called 'eng hua' in this world. or maybe deep down inside, i don't even exist. it's all just a pack of lies. i'm just wasting my time with you guys. ALL you guys.

i tried to think, who is actually there for me when i really needed help. it's just so sad when you reach a point of realisation that out of so many friends. SO MANY "FRIENDS", none of them cared. what friends mean to you guys? a silly prank joke that you made just to spice up your life?

i ought to think more for myself.

i was dumb enough to believe your lies. you guys find me a chore? tell me straight in my face and i will jolly well get out of your life. well, forget it. then don't ever call me out. fancy bluffing me right in front of my nose and i don't even know. i'm dumb. very dumb. you may have your reasons. but i can say none of the reasons are valid enough to prove your innocence of lying to me. lying may be a crude word. but it links up to the word trust. so how much trust i have in you, you may not have it in me. it came to a point that i lost all trust and faith in all of you. people who have done this to me should jolly well rot in hell and i'm happy about it.

i'm down on my mood for these few days. don't fuck with me and you will be fine.

darkness

listening: fob - thai restaurant order

yesterday, went to help nanyang cc at the final at takashimaya. man, it's damn dark down there. kong ze's reaction is like damn funny, half angry, half sarcastic. the way he present himself is just funny. *laughs. they got 8.91, which is already very good. but ri xing got 9.25. obviously it's dark down there.

recently alot of bad things happen. can't attend the events i want to go for shit. one i don't wish to mention. just alot of things. don't wish to mention it all. darn. how can life be smooth with all these shit stuff? god.. i wish i can just take a break from everything and do the stuff i like.

a note to the people reading my blog. but i doubt there will be, if you ever see me online for more than 30 mins, message me in msn to get the hell out of the internet connection and start study for my O level. darn. i have to really get my ass down to study. i'm just too fucking lazy.

regrets

listening : eddie getting owned by Francis

yesterday, the science class was cancelled, because of that stupid lesson, i missed out RONIN at suntec. damn it! jerry, you better give me that goodie bag of yours! darn! and RONIN's launch party at rouge, i also can't go! why does everything just screw up on me. damn it. oh well, but yesterday i did get to see the chio and cute girl in my class. get to talk to her. *laughs. had a HUGE debate about religion yesterday, darn. i was overwhelmed by words words and more words. okay. i have to go do my lab now. paulo coming!

dream

Listening : Nothing

yesterday, i had a weird dream. other than the robbing thing that i remembered since young. HELLO! i'm not trying to copy Jerry's entry, he's always blogging down some of the dreams he had, i don't. this is the first time i'm doing so Jerry, don't be a pussy to say i'm copying you.

the dream was that i had a huge quarrel with my classmates. it's really, HUGE. everyone in the class, all the guys all the girls, and both of my lecturers. i was so hopping mad i jumped down the building in school. henry, kelly and someone whom i can't remember tried to pull me back up but NO CHANCE. the moment i hit the ground, BANG! i was transfered to another dream i can't remember now.

the other dream that i always remember EVER, was that my dad got robbed, i gave chase to the robber and nabbed him. that's one of the dream i remembered clearly and have always remember when i was like 11 years old. other than that, none of the dreams i had i remember.

so just now, i went into classroom, thinking that everything's just like in the dreams. everyone's against me. i kept quiet and was kind of dull. never cared. so after CARE, now's in practical. but everything's not like what's in the dreams. i guess i was being dumb for a moment.

yesterday, went to food fair with my classmates. yet again. after everything, jerry called up to ask me if i know where got sell porridge around my neighbourhood. it struck me that my mum likes to eat the porridge in the hawker centre. so i brought him there. was crapping all the way till this girl at the western food. she sure looks like the cute girl that i always see in the morning at the bus stop. there's an incident that happened quite a long time ago, where this cute girl, fell while going down the stairs to get to the bus stop. i was like damn, why none of the people around there helped her up. so i gave her a hand. since then, everytime we see each other. we will smile to each other. but yesterday, at the western food stall. this girl sure looks like her. but after some confirmation with the sugar cane uncle where i got to know everytime i go to supper. it's confirm that it's not the girl.

was planning to go to jerry house for a short drumming session till he said, 'maybe cannot play because the drum is beside the tv, my brother may be in the living room watching tv. so in order to play, we have to move the whole drumset into his room'
i was like 'okay, let's not do it tonight.' so jerry's kind of pissed because i don't want to send him home. hecked, went home, watched tv sleep.

For Nuts

Watching : Limp Bizkit - Faith (live at pepsi smash)

i think i need to push over something written by Jerry.

quote from Jerry. read the wednesday july 27th 1st entry of the day by him.

"Eng Hua knows something about HTML. in fact he knows a lot. impressive, how come everyone who owns a blog know how to settle their own shit except for me? if I were to change a bloody layout, it'll probably take me days to get everything done. cos I'll be spending most of the time asking people what to do, where to put this & that etc etc.

to think Eng Hua got it all done in like 1 hr?"

this is the thing i have to push over, i've been trying to do up my new blog but it's giving a real headache. everything's all so hay wired. i don't even know if i put it up, will it work cause frontpage is quite lousy. can't read 'sildeoutmenu' this command. urgh. i will do it up by the end of the year. if i have the right knowledge to finish it up. for the mean time i will stick to this skin.

i will conitnue updating from today onwards, till end of the year i will load the new skin up. HOPEFULLY.