fate

i just realised i've just reconciled with my bloody past personality. it sends my blood pumping and boiling when i saw it. something that i deem inappropriate but is it what it is supposed to be? is that within my control? certainly not. i just can't stop thinking the fact that with my character, i may lose everything. EVERYTHING..

to me, everything is one thing. and that one thing which meant everything to me, is making me lose my grip. i've lost my will to struggle and to hang on for my dear life, even though it's under extreme circumstances.

you know what?

i think i lost it

HYPOCRITES

death lurks

on the birthday of christ, i was given something. something too much for me to handle. thanks santa.

life got it's own ups and downs. i'm really at the downside right now, i've never felt so frustrated and tired before. so much so it have consumed my ability to think straight. i'm really sick in my mind right now. i don't feel like talking face to face, i don't feel like meeting people face to face and i very much would like to be alone. for a long time.

i hate christmas. christmas.. a season of joy? bullshit. frustrations > joy.

GET IT?

X mas

Merry X'Mas!! EVERYONE!!!

due to my lack of updates, i think not much people's giving at rat's ass about my blog. heck. anyway, i fucking busy with projects, guitar and everything. i might not be able to update that frequently. now you see why.

23rd December 2006 marks a beautiful day of my life. It's all about the love, peace and laughter. =)

cracking

this sure cracks me up.

enjoy.

South Park - Eric Cartman

screw you

Listening : Nothing

i've been playing this online interactive game called 'Utopia'. it's a strategy game which i think i suck at it. while i'm sucky with it, the management decided to take the matter to hand and make it suckier by having the server down.

it's advised that we log in everyday cause 1 day in reality = 1 month in utopia. so we can manage our province well. when i was about to log in, they prompt me to enter a 3 digit number. and so i did, but it gave me an error 404 message. i tried a couple of times but failed. so i told myself, maybe tonight login. when i logged in at night, to my HORROR. my province was literally ran over by a stampede due to war. people claimed my land like there's no tomorrow. let the statistics do the talking.

Highest Networth recorded - 68,000 gc
now?
Current Networth 43,937gc

Highest Land Area recorded - 921 acres
now?
Current Land 427

Highest Honor recorded - 1117 points
now? Current Honor 556

Total Land Lost in Combat 1262 acres

in just the matter of half a day!! claim me all you want, i maybe give up on this province. sucks.

self proclaimed hysterical

Listening : Soulfly - Prophecy

lazed through my days, i think i'm becoming more of a slacker. not wanting to do anything and everything.

java test sucked. it's like genius is able to do everything. well it seems. he always leave the room confidently saying he knows how to do, but in the end, his grades are always lousier than mine. HEY, i'm not bragging but it's just the way it is.

will been going through quite a lot of stuff recently. the stress sets in as for now. next week is common test. wednesday is DMD, friday is math. or is it the other way round?

see what i mean when i say i'm a slacker now?

although after the common test week, it will be 2 weeks of holidays. i think the 2 weeks, i will be busy as fuck. i've got to plan out something real big and i've to complete 3 projects. time management helps but as you know, with my character, i won't even follow the time management.

next saturday will be hok san's anniversary. the things that he call me to do isn't done yet. seriously giving thought to giving up after next year's dragon dance competition, which i think they will include me. not all confirmed but i think i will leaving a slot for it cause i already said yes. once it's done, i don't know if i can continue.

after watching some show on tvmobile, i'm so truly inspired to do something that isn't done in singapore. i will keep it down right now. i don't know if it's going to be successful or not, but i hope to get this project going full time next year's february.

i think that's about what's going on in my life recently. this is sort of like a random post.

it is to me.

oh yeah, one last thing before i'm done. say, what charm do K-BOX have that keeps the customers going in? seriously i don't get it. you pay a good $13 to go in there and sing your guts out? maybe for the company, but $13!?

unbelievable.

i'm guilt striken but at the same time i don't feel a need to spend that money. i don't go spend $13 just to go in there and stone. been there done that. it's totally... mad, if you were to ask me.i would be there anytime, but you say you are going K-BOX, dude, that's not going to happen.

drowned

Listening : Ministry - No W

back for a short update. been busy with something. not studies, but something called NFS. need for speed underground 2. ever since aaron got it in my laptop, oh my. i'm damn distracted by it.

try..in..g... ver....y..... ha..r.d....t.o... r..e.s..is...t..

will be back for a long update. i hope.. soon?