numbness

Listening : Slipknot - No Life

staying at home isn't a good idea. going out ain't a good idea. what am i trying to drive myself to? sanity? boredom? damn i'm so indecisive.

been staying at home the whole day trying to rush and finish my research today. i have feeling the things are going to pile up soon. i've written till my hands go numb and sore. i still have yet to finish the last part of the research.

my computer's in sanity mode right now. it can go off at any second. it just did this afternoon while i was in the midst of my research. partly my fault, i dropped the keyboard accidently but that's now big thing to cause the whole screen to go white and just hang on me. wasted like 4 hours watching dvd. played guitar till 6. decided to skip today's training.

things ain't going smoothly. i'm feeling looney this few days. pardon me if i've ever offending any one of you people.

this is a new shit

Listening : Nothing

i'm seriously hating myself right now and the thing that revolves me. i hate myself. i hate the things that are happening around me. what's the use of getting into poly when i can't even want something that is so basic. i'm seriously regretting studying so much when i can't even get what i want. the best part? i have to work for it.

and the things i do just irritates people. i hate it. but i can't help it. spare me.

a new twist, a new start

Watching : Trivium - Dying in your arms

school officially starts today for me after like a month of break. it seriously is not enough for me to replenish the energy that i've spent during my post secondary school days and ITE days. i've yet to regain my conscious after a huge blow and now i'm setting into another new chapter of my life.

school's outright boring today cause official lessons haven't start yet. well, except for the module on Graphic Design. the lecturer started her lessons already. which i slept in her lesson. so much for 1st day in school. seriously, she can't keep me entertained. even the internet doesn't keep me awake from her talking. i dozed off and just WHAM lie down on the table and sleep. the other lecturer woke me up though.

well, it's not all that bad. tomorrow's club crawl. hope everything goes well.

reminscing

Watching : Metallica - Master of Puppets

been away for quite a few days. due to the fact that i'm busy going to gatherings and meeting up friends. new friends, old friends. and i'm dead beat everytime i come back from those outings. and i will always end up sleeping like a dead log rather than coming back to update. and due to another reason because, yes, my brother's hogging on the computer. so what the hell.

the past one week, have been quite happening. both happy and sad.

happy times are that i met up with some of my secondary school friends.

sad times is that someone not particularly close to me but still indirectly related to me passed away.

monday, i seriously forgot what happened that day.

tuesday, went out with weiting and janet. went to watch ice age 2. it's lame and not really very funny. but it's still okay. well, it's the gathering that matters. the movie doesn't really matter. just hope that we will stay in contact no matter what happens, and too in due to time.

wednesday, went out with 0614. not really all of them are there. but we did have quite a pleasant time there. playing pool. talking shit. well, basically i'm only the one talking shit. others just laugh at me. let's just say i'm the clown of the class. after that went for NYP's training. really regret agreeing on going there. damn. shan't go into the details. it just suck.

thursday, went out with 0614 yet again. ... went to buy our lecture notes and such. i really regretted buying one of the book. communication and networking. i got that when i'm in ITE. completely wasted the money. damn.. after that went to have lunch at J8. then went to esplanade and marina square. had a fun time with them.

after that. went to shifu's mum's funeral. it's a solemn occasion. but we are kind of like joking around and such. felt kind of bad. but heard one of the uncle say it's okay because although we are at a solemn occasion. our laughter will sort of raise the spirit of the relatives. don't let them feel so sad for the passing of the close ones.

yesterday, went for the last day of the funeral. shan't go into the details. quite boring. things have been happening. i don't wish to bother. i don't wish to care. missed out the sentosa trip because of that. but it's well worth it.

went to meet them at around 6.30pm. went to walk around. sat down and talked. the whole thing took up 2 hours before we decide to go home. still, in the class i'm the one who's doing the talking. had quite a long conversation with one of them at night. more like an interaction. *shrugs*

today, will be helping weijin for the big event. quite looking forward to it. shall stop here. need to clear out some stuff.

Still Thinking

Watching : Murderdolls - Die My Bride

6th April

after so much pendings and such, finally go out to meet huiming, weiting and imelda. weiting and i went around walking and shopping first while waiting for huiming and imelda. after that went to walk around tampines mall before heading to jinying's bday chalet. imelda left after the shopping trip.

it's like so pathetic? only 6 person there. but i think they are having fun. so what the heck. after that weiting went home cause she will reach home late and her mum will reprimand her for doing that. huiming and i went to have dinner before going home. it's always a nice feeling to chat with someone you haven't caught up for like the longest time. i haven't meet her for like half a year. that's always the duration in between us before meeting up with each other. hmmm... chat with huiming all the way to her house. yes, i sent her home. before i left home.

7th April

went for NYP for the last day of orientation. it's not all bad. but still, it's pretty fine. i'm the quiet one. and out of the blue. they call me lao da for nothing. ... it's totally what the fuck. my class is quite happening though. it's like same as ITE. a very fun class to be with. they are very friendly peeps. even though i went for the last day, they open up to me. it's very to see them so friendly yet i'm cold to them. so i chit chat with them for a little while. just to show them abit of my true colours. ...

after that, TOOK a 2 hour bus ride from NYP to West Coast. ALL THANKS to LYNETTE. really is sit until ass rot. my ass became numb if you want to know. went there for training. very very unsatisfied with a few stuff. nonetheless i chose to keep quiet.

today, i chose to stay at home all day. tomorrow go hok san training. next week will be hell. full of programmes. shall see about it. will update when i have the time. school's starting soon. looking forward.

GASing

Watching : Mick thompson shred tips

okay, i'm back again to update this chalet. i wasn't on the computer yesterday to update, so what the hell, i'm here.

1st April

the night where i got nothing to do and since it was april fool day. i sent most of my friend a message. 'hey, don't sleep already. wake up and pee. wake up! wake up! HAHA!! Happy April Fool.'

i was actually having quite a personal conversation with raymond talking about lots of stuff, until i realised it's april fool. so i just did that out of stupidity. so far i only know one person woke up because of that message of mine.

well, that day, it's not that eventful. everyone's like doing their own stuff. watching TV and such. i went home to take a bath before i come back for the night's BBQ. i was like so uncomfortable but blame myself. i forgot to bring my toiletries.

i went back, it's quite late. everyone's still like watching TV and such. just a handful down there BBQing. OH, they are not watching TV, they are singing Karaoke. cool stuff, they brought microphone and such for chalet. NOW that's something new.

had BBQ, talked shit. the gang went to the red house while zhi wei and i sat there to talk. i didn't know how to ride a bicycle so yeah. OKAY, go ahead and laugh. i don't know how to ride a freaking bicycle.

the night ended with quite a bit of twist. the gang got a cake and they starting chasing people around to drench them because their birthday falls on april. ah bao got the worst treatment ever. he was drenched and soaked in water. and he carried a pail here and there full of water to make other people yet. there's alot of laughter everything. the scenes was just hilarious. after that, something wrong with ah bao, i think he crazy already, suddenly don't chase them with water. instead, he use those water to go wash vehicles. he washed like, a whole van, a car and 2 motorcycle. he's just so funny.

we all got tired and we went to bed.

2nd April

most of us already planned to go home already.i went home at 3pm. slacked till 1am before i sleep.

4th April

went out early in the morning to pei weiting go poly clinic. and at the same time go play badminton with her. after that we went to have lunch and we went home individually.

5th April

today went back to school with zhi wei to help him with his enrolment to Simei ITE. WELCOME! then we walked around to look for sling bag and such. after that we went back home.

oh, i went to swee lee sim drive. the damn dc brick cost 286 bucks. fucking hell.

P.S.: remain the way you are and you will lose out. better take care of your attitude.

worn out

Listening : Nothing

31st March

it's the day of the chalet, but they are meeting at 6pm. so i went to sweelee to get extra patch cable first before i leave for the chalet. i was quite late considering that i left home at 5.45pm. but to my surprise, none arrived when i reached around 6.20pm. cool. subsequently spiderman and jiji came. we got our directions on how to get to the chalet site.

i alight the bus when seng horned at us. bloody hell, he fucking careless alright. this was what happened. after he honked at us to get up the lorry. i think he thought there's only 2 of us so when the second person get on aboard, he just step on the accelerator and just go off.

I WASN'T ON THE LORRY TOTALLY YET!

my left leg was over the back of the lorry and my right leg was still on the road when the lorry take off.

i was so freaking out and freaking hanging on for this miserable life on mine. i was pretty much dragged for like 2 metres before he realise something is wrong and i wasn't on the lorry yet. so stopped and i just get off the thing and run to the front seat and sit at the front.

there's like a group of girls at the bus stop who witness this incident. i think i saw a couple of pretty ladies.

they are like saying 'OH MY GOD' under their hands which they placed over their mouth. their eyes are staring like as if their eyeballs can drop out anytime from the eye socket.

SO FUCKING EMBARRASSED CAN!?

to those people who wished that i go to hell, TOO BAD i'm still alive. i suffered a superficial injuries on my right ankle and right upper thigh. there's a pretty deep cut at on the right upper thigh like 6 - 7 centimetres.

the night was pretty messy and busy. not much people there to help out so we are like free labours. more or less had our own share of fun. didn't really sleep that night. talked alot of shit with raymond and zhiwei.

aiya, i think i update the other day tomorrow. i'm so worned out. i go sleep already.