LAUGHING MY ASS OFF

Listening - Nothing

THE MOMENT OF TRUTH HAVE ARRIVED. I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.

don't mind what's written on top, it's none of your business. get on with the entry.

well, my individual project was completed, but i need some help from the lecturer. i just hate using frames. FRAMES SUCKS BIG TIME. i hope i can do without frames. but still, there's some major assed problem waiting for me. Visual Basic. don't you just hate it when things doesn't go your way? well, it is for me.

these few days have been boring to me. doing projects, eat, sleep and play guitar. nothing else. i was so bored, i'm actually reading facts about singapore on wikipedia last night. i was just browsing through the informations of bands like dimmu borgir, COB, sinergy and slipknot. i read every page of their band members. when i reached slipknot, they are introducing the LIVE 9.0 CD which say it's recorded at which countries, singapore being one of them. there's a link to it, so i just clicked on it and read about singapore. talk about boring.

i was like watching lame assed television programs just now. but then when i switched it to channel news asia, WOW. singapore's government finally decided to do something about the english educating system in singapore. it's the failing rates of english in singapore that wakes them up. well, this point, i will elaborate later on. on with english. some caucasian was interviewed. he's someone who established an english school in singapore for more than 10 years and what he says is true. singaporeans are too contented with their standard of english.

just by exchanging a few words, you can get a vague idea of singaporeans' english. i'm talking about the general public. not about those who went overseas and came back with your english full of accent and those who attained PhD in Literature. a challenge that singaporeans face, holding a proper english conversation. i am ashamed of myself for my poor command of english. well, at least i do give it a thought.

back to the government. well, you see, government implement things AFTER things happens. for instance, dengue fever, proper english, the recent massage parlour shit. they are more interested in implementing things that burdens us rather than things that are to the well being of the human race. just moments ago, i saw on the papers, that cab fare's going to have a rise in basic fee again. well, you might say it's just 10 cents. THAT'S THE POINT! it's just 10 cents. i see no reason in raising it.

when dengue fever hits, then they start getting panicky and such. let's just see what they will do after the dengue virus fades off.

the recent massage parlour shit? it's not that those reality shows on Channel U did not go into these issues. they did in fact go and do some research over it and get it aired. what did the government do? watch, then keep quiet. then when there's case of a female getting murdered in massage parlour like what happened recently, then they start implementing those laws here and there. they want the law to take effect almost immediately, leaving no rooms for those in the industry to adapt with the new law. then they start fining them. it's $7k - $9K mind you. you have to think how many people must they service and massage before getting back that amount.

recently, i was made to do a survey for a friend of mine. it's say, something about hepatitis virus. one question was asked. do you know that the government is actually running a compaign on hepatitis? i'm totally oblivious to it and i believe most of you are not aware of it too. they made a campaign and they are not made known to the public? redundant i must say.

not that i'm looking down at the government. just look at the SARS outbreak, when it hits, the government gets panicky. now that it's peaceful and all, nothing's taken into consideration. the last time i received the SARS package, was last year in ITE. nothing was made known to the public to let them know that there's still risks of getting that virus. pardon my words, but if SARS hit again, the government will get panicky again. just wait and see.

wow, to think a 19 year old boy like me can think of all these stuff and not those ministers sitting in the parliament. i can run for the next election as a private candidate....

people make noises when they are sick

Listening : Ozzy Osbourne - Ozzmosis

it have been a relaxing week for me basically but i guess the hard work starts next week. it's term break and i really took it as a break off school work and everything. but think thing's are going to change for me next week. it's time to get my butt down for serious work

i'm insanely ecstatic and at the same time worried for some reason. it's been such a long time since i had this wonderful feeling. it's wonderful though it's worrying. wonderful overwrites worries. worries? fuck that, i'm just thinking too much... i hope so.

don't mind me, i'm just sick in the mind.

it's cool to like go out alone when you are.. thinking too much stuff? it's better than staying at home facing the four walls in your room and play some shit on the guitar while your mind is pacing.

at least you have some stuff to take notice of to temporary keep you away from thinking shit like suicide. no doubt i went out alone on one of those days. there's this phillipino that kept me amused and disgust while i was on my way to bras basah.

first, let me describe to the best of my knowledge about her to you people (if anyone is reading this)

she's fat. fatter than me. she have those stupid and weird hair drop on a side of her hair. it seems to me like it's not properly braided. it looks stupid if you ask me. her face is like... been run over by a car? it's totally gruesome, even a glance can make you puke. but she still puts on make up and lip stick in front of you like she's some hot babe. her lips is as fat as the big mac you can find at macdonalds.
she wears a tank top, her fats are like seeping out of the fabric and that tank top of hers is totally stretched to the maximum.
she wears a long skirt with a cutting at the centre and she sits with her leg open widely, like trying to show her you know what. just in case you guys are having dirty thoughts about me, i didn't purposely see that. i just gave A top to bottom scan of her, that's all. another glance of her disgust me, which it did.

i board the bus, i sat directly opposite her. she's munching some titbits which i forgot what is it. it's some orange coloured rings. she kept on munching and munching and just like wipe her dirty orange fingers on the seat. a caucasian boarded at sat beside her. she just keeps on giving off that irritating munching sound that the caucasian starts giving her stern stares.
after finishing those titbits, she happily threw it to the back, which was unoccupied. then she just started wiping her fingers on her skirt and took out the make up kit to touch up with her dirty fingers. totally KEWL if you were to ask me. that's the glance that nearly made me puke. all along, i was staring out of the window trying my best not to pay any attention to her.

she then took out a discman, with that hand again. starts singing loudly in the bus. it's some gibberish phillipines language or just some gibberish that i don't understand. the passengers in the bus started to give her weirds stares and such. she's oblivious to it obviously.

the next moment, i was out of the bus. i couldn't stand it. it's just so... disturbing?

enough of her.

yesterday, went out with my classmates, rather unorganised i must say. had sushi buffet and you've guessed it. we are full like fuck. we sat there for 4 hours eating non stop. you can imagine the scene. after that went around to shop for a while before they head for home. i didn't. i went to PS to walk around. it so happens that zhen ru was working that day. get to catch up with her for a little while.
she claims that my hair is getting from bad to worse. is that really the case?

head home at around 6.55pm. coincidently say sim phuy and her one of her secondary school classmate at the bus stop. think his name is shawn if i'm not wrong. took the same bus and sort of caught up with them.

i just hope everything goes well for me. give me all your luck!

glimpse of sanity

Watching : trivium - dying in your arms

school hasn't been all good for me. actually, things are not going to my expectation. everything's shitting up on me right now.

it have come to my realisation that someone have been talking smack about me behind my back. well too bad for you i found out. i just want to say a big fuck you to you. you are not in my shoes, don't start talking like you are some holy assed guy. you are not. your opinions does no effect on me. it's your opinion, it doesn't even have a wee bit of facts in it. so shut the fuck up. if you claim that i'm hard to love, don't love me. i don't need you and i don't need your love. i have no use for that. my love will be somewhere else more than it's been left at home.

i'm starting to hate that old assed guy that teach us graphic design. son of a bitch. why does he need to be so stuck up? claiming it's my fault. shit you asshole. don't fucking put words into my mouth. is that what lecturers do best? you get thousands of salary just to put words into students mouth? i've been getting along with my lecturers well, and you are the first one i've ever raised my voice upon CAUSE you started it first. just in case those bitches stumble upon my blog, don't think for a minute i don't know what you guys are fucking thinking. i know how bitches act and present themselves. don't try to judge and know me. i don't appreciate that.

i'm seriously meeting some shit people around me. getting to know them is a chore so intend to leave them as they are and let them rot to hell.

with your mindset, it's not getting anywhere, after NYP goes to competition, don't expect me for a second to come down to help you. i will go when i feel free and easy. i don't like being forced and i don't like the way you put things to me. i don't care if NYP's going to flourish or go downhill. it's your problem. i'm taking off time from lion dancing for a LONG LONG TIME. if you can't accept me for who i am, i will just disappear from your sight.

so much for bitching......

went to bandzout yesterday in school. it made me change my mindset about how the local music scene is. it's cool to see bands like covering songs from muse and trivium. some did very well, some, just can't seems to figure out what the hell are they playing. but it's cool, we got treated to something more than usual. there's a power failure and quite a few drummers went up to do drum solos as the wait was painstaking. some are good, but some are just making a fool out of themselves.

overall the event was cool. i like the bandz out shirt, but too bad, they have the crew names imprinted on it so i can't get any.

now that i have 3 weeks of holidays on my hand, i think most of the time i will spend at home reading up articles or go jerry house to play guitar. project wise, i need to do them at night and find my uncle for help. cool, i haven't been seeing him since last year.

awareness

Watching : Slipknot - (sic)

singaporeans seriously have a problem with driving. especially taxi drivers. how the hell did they get their licence? damn it shit. my friend was knocked down by a car. he's one of the most safety'iest' motorist around, and yet he was knocked down by a car. was stunned when i heard the news. what i heard was he dislocated his jaw bones.

went to the hospital just now. saw what state he was in. don't dare to talk to him. seeing that he have a problem with talking, i just smiled at him. asked around for more details. his right leg suffered superficial bruises. his jaw bones DID displocate and i think also got break. some of his teeth was knocked out, gums swollen and smashed his chin bones.

it's sad to see a friend in this state. let alone for my friend's parents.

after that went to something which is very much to my displease. it was an event that suppose to be purely music held in a church. BUT, it went on and that guy started preaching. i felt so uncomfortable with that i left half way. it's not what i have in mind in the first place. so yeah. i left. he kept on yakking about how great jesus was and such. blah blah, that's so much about.

and i think christians, do make me laugh. the way they react when they are singing to the 'holy music' or whatever you call them. they close their eyes and raise their hand, as if possessed. i felt like laughing out loud but hey, i will get beaten up. so i kept a mum. that guy in front of me made me really want to laugh out loud. he's mad, singing and dancing to himself, raising his hands shouting 'AMEN, OH LORD' this kind of stuff. i was like what in the world is he doing? he's not the only one. the person up there playing the song was so into it, they are like mad people. seriously. i hope, this is not the case in EVERY church. if not, it will all be psychotic i'm telling you.

shall end here.