cleared out

Watching : Slipknot - Blister Exist

it was a misunderstanding, on my side. my bad. i'm a happy bloke now anyway.

thanks for the peeps who had been there for me. true friends indeed from the bottom of my heart.

yesterday, was the last day for my exams. well i can say it's really a tough paper but i mananged to finish it up. though the javascript part was crap though.

after that went for a farewell dinner for wanping at seletar. the food there's great, really one of the best i've had and the environment is rather, special i must say. though it's kind of warm in there. think it was the beer that's the culprit. starts to have a beer drinking session. just purely sitting down to chat and drinking while the others went for rounds of free pool.

they got kind of mad though, was just keep drinking and drinking, the jugs of beer just kept on coming. it's nearing 11.45pm where the last buses are leaving off the interchange and just when we are thinking of leaving. 2 more jugs came in. we are like, shit, finish it up quickly before we miss our buses. was really rushing here and there.

it's really great to have this kind of stuff when you are happy and when the exams have just ended. sort of a mini celebration.

think got to go and get something done.

asphyxiated

Watching : Slipknot - Before I Forget

我能为一个女子不惜一切的把她放在我生命的最前段。不顾一切的去爱惜她，关心她。无论我有多么的忙碌，我都会抽空和留些空当给她。可是，就是那一个女子能使我在一瞬间跌到谷底。

难道我真的做错了吗？但我还是在混乱中打转，我到底做错了什么？

事情已过了好几天，我尚未对此事作下一个定论。我不敢轻举妄动，因为我还没不知她为何而做出如此的举动。

也许我真的是一个很讨人厌的一个人吧。

you ensnared me into the confusion. a confusion that left me asphyxiated. i can't breathe, i can't understand. i'm not at a right mind to do anything now. what should i do? or should i say, what CAN i do? you left me in a maze, a maze of no return.

disgusting

Listening : Dimmu Borgir - spellbound

what i'm paranoid came true. what's is it that made me feel that way is the same thing that help me through.

i found out the truth. the disgusting truth that made me feel so empty.

what the hell did i do to deserve all of these? who's there to be with in the first place? what's trust? a pack of lies? ironic comparison.

i hope i'm dead drunk tonight to do anything.

humourously paranoid

Watching : Slipknot - Blister Exist

is one being overly paranoid a good thing or a bad thing? i can't seems to reach a conclusion for this question.

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the weather nowadays are like so unpredictable, 1 day, it's hot like suana, like what i'm going through now. and the other minute it rained like it's snowing. it's so... uncomfortable. so humid...

well exams are starting tomorrow but i still have not really fully understand what's the textbook is talking about.

and to think in the midst of revising, i got so sick of the mess on my desk that i rearranged it to accommodate all my stuff.

Before


After


can see that my desk is mostly conquered by wires. got it arranged too. it's hanging on my window.

tomorrow's exam. wish me luck.

enlightenment helps

Listening : Arch Enemy - My Apocolypse

i feel that there's a need for me to tone down abit in every aspects of my life. so therefore, i've decided after my exams, i will revamp this blog. revamping is just because i just got my laptop (yes, the pixel doesn't fit and no, i'm not a show off) and i think this skin have been with me for like a year already? time for a change.

i'm back at the roots of of why i started this blog. what goes around comes around aye? just a little background knowledge, i used to have 2 blogs, but they were torn down cause i didn't update it frequently. this is actually the blog which survived for like 2 years? can't remember though but this is definitely the first blog that last me for such a long time with 230+ post. yeah, i know the number of post is pathetic but oh well..

i'm really high on what's happening around me. exams are around the corner and there's something that's not meant to be elaborated on this site. so yeah, i'm having quite a major turn in my life now, i just hope i won't screw it up.

感谢你能给我多一次的机会。我会好好地珍惜。

i can say i'm very grateful for that kind gesture of yours.

kind of contented with what's happening in my life right now. shan't ask for more. if it's meant to be, it will be. if it's not, move on. i sure am glad that i realised this after yesterday night.

gloating

Listening : Trivium - Detonation

well i'm having a break from school for a week. but that's the break that i need to really revise on everything. my html, the horrendous VB programming and data communications. exam falls the week after the next. i will be rather busy for that week. already 3 bookings to go out on that day. WOW. it's totally pure leisure after hell. cool. but it's a sad thing that i'm going to miss someone cause she's going overseas. so yeah. that someone is NOT that someone. if you guys know what i'm talkng about. ...

after the exams, think there will be a 7 weeks break off from school. don't know what to do exactly, but i will be having a hair cut that's for sure. everyone's blabbering about it. ...

i'll be like broke for a year cause my eldest brother got me a laptop. although he say it isn't necessary but i feel that there's a need to return him the money cause basically i'm the only one using it. yeah, each month 100 bucks. i'm going to be so broke.

life's a sound declaration of despair. live with it.

best of the best

Listening : Paul Gilbet - Scarfied

well, common test is over and i think i have a rough idea what grades i'm going to get. no finger crossing what so ever.

yesterday, after the math common test, was psychoed by polymates to go to sentosa to celebrate trixy's birthday. it's a chalet to tell you cause i will tell you something which i think i seriously outrageous.

imagine, you booked a chalet for 40 bucks for a full day, you thought it's a real deal. in the end the chalet turns out to be 2 and a half the size of the toilet cubicle you use in the toilet. it's frustrating to my friends when she first saw that. how cool. in the end, turn out, not enough place to sleep, we slept on the rocks at siloso beach.

or rather, we didn't really sleep, instead, we were making prank calls. calling friends in the middle of the night, asking them to borrow us money due to some shit reasons like losing in soccer betting and borrowing of money from bookies. turn out, ONLY ONE asshole rejected to help, others are all willing to fork out like more than hundred bucks. true friends indeed.

and the orgasm prank of all, aaron called me to call his cousin to prank him. and so i did. i kept blabbering about that i'm an NSF personnel and trying to update the database what so ever due to the crashing of the database. the guy's name is called alvin ho. then when i say, 'okay, mr adrian ho' then he's like ' i'm not adrian ho, i'm alvin ho'. then i stupidly apologise then put down the phone. YES, we are just bored.

soon after that we slept by the poolside at the resort beside siloso beach. and damn the mosquitos! they are so well fed by US yesterday night, we slept and they kept sucking our blood. i'm not that bad, i only got stinged at my arms. aaron got stinged whole body, yes, even his precious face got stinged.

that sums up what i have to blog for the day. i'm drained physically but not mentally.

dead?

Watching : COB - are you dead yet?

yeah, i'm so fucking dead. tomorrow's common test and i still have loads of shit to go through. realising that i'm well versed with the subject but 100% NOT GOOD at applying the concept into my assignments and revision papers. well i'm so dead now. and it's early in the morning i'm blogging this cause i shall spend the rest of the day... studying and practicing. don't think by just plain studying will get me through. most importantly, practice. as for graphic design.... study what?! i am totally clueless. friday's math paper, it's either i scrape through it or i will fail it. but anyway, it's just an elective, can always drop it off in year 2.

for now, most important, visual basics and digital electronics.

will update during the 1 week break which is between the common test and the exam period. off to breakfast and then hit the books.

一个人站在草地上望着天空，天空里的烟火扑通扑通地响。此时此刻，多么希望你在我身边陪伴着我。跟我一起分享这份喜悦。如果你在我身边，那该有多好啊！

每一时，每一刻，都在想着你。

bliss before darkness

Watching : Anthrax - Belly of the Beast

well, i can say that all my projects are done, just a final thing to be done and i'm free from projects. it sure is a relief but just for a couple of days. i have to get my big fat ass down to study for the common test that's coming up. i don't want to fail either of them, especially math! i am very sure i don't want to go to a math complementary studies lesson again. hate it to the maximum.

yesterday was just pure heaven. went to school not even for 5 hours then go home. came back home to get a well deserved nap. it's the first time i had a 3 hours nap. guess i'm really worn out? never had naps for more than 2 hours.

well, the following 3 weeks will be just papers and more papers to go. it's good though, short period of time in school means saving up some money. alot of stuffs are waiting for me to get it repaired but i just don't have the money to get them fixed and now something happens again. will make a list just in case.

- get an mp3 within a month
- jerry dear jerry. owe him too much seriously, not amount but 人情
- fix my DS7 and HM2.
- repair my M7
- mod my washburn

will have to go hunting for a laptop again, citibank declined the payment for my dell laptop so my dad call me to go hunt at sim lim and funan.

in the meantime, i still have to return 2 overdue testimonials and complete my Logic Gates E Learning. hmmm.... and to think, early in the morning. really is 七早八早.

saw a scene in my neighbourhood, like the 古惑仔 gathering. take a look.



6 black cars in a row. looks funny to me.

不应该

Listening : Stone Sour - Detonation

千错万错都是我的错。我不该选择在那时候放下你。如今事情已变， 我不知该如何是好。我只希望我们能像以前一样，那该有多好。我不知要从哪儿开始说起，我只知道我欠你实在是太多太多。 我希望你能原谅我的过错，也再给我一个机会。我答应你这一次我会好好地珍惜你，不会再让你失望。 相信我多一次，好吗？如今我以对很多事物都感到很冷漠。 唯一我对一件事感到十分失望，就是我对你的那份歉意。