encapsulated feelings

Listening - drowning pool : the game

cool shit happening around this few days.

you got me fucking demoralised of what's going on in my world. making me don't feel like doing anything.. AT ALL.

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you are freaking showing off to me unintentionally. even though you aren't noticing that i walking pass you like a ghost. those intimate actions.. just made me feel that you are with the wrong person.. he's not your cup of tea, find someone else..

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friends are like money, valued by the poor, abused by the rich.

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all the above 3 occurred on me with different people existing in my life. what is life anyway? a game definitely. a huge monopoly in disguise. 3 strikes. i'm out..

on another side.. something to be elated about.. MTM1 is in the house.. no pics yet but definitely gorgeous.. can't wait to share but i'm fucking lazy. how?

busy busy

Listening : neil zaza - i'm alright

busy is the best excuse i can come up with for my disappearance from blogging. seriously i'm busy to the core. school and work are what i'm doing nowadays. it such a weekly routine for me that i can even list out what i am doing. you guys know it's kind of hard to meet me up sooner or later. but in the first place, who would?

*shrugs*

monday - basically is SO redundant to go to school. an hour of lecture then i can go home. where do i find the motivation just to go to school an hour? i don't know. this is the only day i can do my stuff.

tuesday - 9am to 8.30pm in school. period.

wednesday, thursday - first half of the day in school. second half of the day, at work.

friday - 8am to 8.30pm in school.

saturday and sunday - whole day working.

i think i'm just making myself busy so that i won't let my nonsensical thoughts manifest itself.

it doesn't help when i'm having such a busy schedule, my mum goes on a week holiday. my father and my brothers practically turned the whole house over. actually, it's just my brothers. i spent like 2 hours of my precious rest time getting everything in place.

this few days of work have been particularly smooth. i hope it stays that way..

somethings that are none of your concern.. i just feel like typing it down..

it's all fated to be.. i understand everything now. i'm disappointed with everything.

i'm depressed, but at the same time i'm elated. by something. somehow or rather, the excitment isn't at it's peak.