LIES. all fucking LIES. my heart aches and i feel like killing myself. why am i so gullible? why am i so stupid? my chest cramps up. i just feel like having fits right now and just die. seriously.

i am seriously urging people who hate me. kill me, stab me to death. i see no reason in life anymore.

screwed

why is it that i always have the feeling my life's screwed even before recent happenings.

my whole body's cold, breaking into cold sweats every night, every now and then.. i'm not happy anymore. until the day those things are solved and goes away.. then i'll be happy.

i'm having insomnia. i'm losing my appetite. i'm losing my interest to everything and anything. i have no mood for everything and anything. i have no motivation.. AT ALL.. i feel disgusted by everything.

money triggers it all.

wrong combination

work till 11, party from 11 till 6am. lesson at 10am the very next day.. not a very good combination.

with hypnotically imbued lecturers, it doesn't help. shit i feel so sleepy now..